Excellently written. I hear you, I feel you , I agree with you. Well done for your strength of pulling away from it. It is so difficult. I have had a tumultuous few years with alcohol taking a hold of my sister. I had to stop her drink driving and she is still angry at me to this day. On the back of this, I now rarely drink. I feel better for it myself.

I wrote a piece about it here:

https://medium.com/open-letters-to/an-open-letter-to-alcohol-adc7ad193b68