I felt the highs and lows of this. The pain and anguish of infertility and childlessness knows no bounds. While I am childfree, I advocate for the childless.
I've recently created a publication called Life Without Children dedicated to stories of life without children whether by choice or circumstances. Your words would fit right in.
Know you are not alone.
Here's our "write with us"
https://lifewithoutchildren.com/write-with-life-without-children-686e37554716