I read every word. Nice to meet you. What a life. We have many similarities Carly and maybe we can learn from each other.
My parents also separated when I was 8 years old. I also still have a very complicated relationship with my father and am close to estrangement. I also have a close family member who is under the grips of alcohol. I also lived in Cairns for a bit. I also have had many battles with my sense of worth, belonging, value etc etc all tied to childhood stuff.
Anyway, I wanted to say I hear you and thank you for being vulnerable and open.