Oh Elizabeth!!!! What a beautiful, painful and raw piece. I understand it. I feel it. I live it and experience similar feelings. It’s a similar time frame since I lost Jas. 21st January 2018 to be precise.
Keep writing. Keep remembering incase you forget.
I have a playlist I created to help my grief. When I listen to it now, it takes me right back.
Have you seen one of the big medium writing prompts in the coming month is about death? I think you could write something exceptional!