Oh I hear you. This resonates deeply. It made me sad to read the words from your sister and that you’ve never spent your birthday with friends.

Is there an option to follow your heart with the cabin idea?

I’m similar, I really dislike my birthday. It was 3 days ago. I’ve still not bounced back. I struggle for many reasons, key one being so invisible, hardly any of my friends remembered. And I have amazing friends, we are so much more than just remembering birthdays, but still….

Each year I try to manage my expectations, but I always feel sad. Also, I’m a twin and I’ve a complicated relationship with her, this year neither of us got in touch with the other.

I try and give myself kindness on this day. I went to the beach with my dog. Paddled and read a book.

Im not looking for fanfare. But maybe just one day to feel a little special right? Sounds like that’s all you are asking for too.

Plan something for you. Follow your yearnings. Celebrate you, as we can’t rely on others to do so. ❤️