Oh I'm sorry Nina, I can only imagine how that one landed on you. It does feel like a betrayal. The thing is, it would have been much easier for me if I had told people I wanted but couldn't have. I would be more accepted, atleast I would have it I could sort of attitude. I wouldn't be such a "monster". But I owned my choice. I didn't appropriate the lived experience of the childless. Yes, it's painful and torturous and I can never imagine the grief and anguish of the childless, but between friends .... where are the honest conversations.