Oh I'm sorry you feel a little lackluster and directionless. It can be really unsettling. Your story is a beacon for so many people. I like how you are a following your energy. When I feel as you have described I used to go harder on myself. Now I follow my energy and eventually I get out of my funk.

My thing - I have several things. But the last few years I've given time and attention to exploring women who choose not to have children - the childfree. My deep dive has taken me into some incredible research, i've read dozens of books, built up a Twitter account to help reduce the stigma the childfree feel, which has gained over 3k followers, I've been asked to speak at events, I've written over 23 articles on the topic. I am not coming at this from an angle of saying parenting is wrong, quite the contrary. I'm coming at this from the angle of recognising that we all have our own path and it is important that we all have the support to follow our own path. Currently reading Women Without Kids by Ruby Warrington. It's a great read for everyone.