Oh Sara I hear your fog. I know you are well read and you know yourself explicitly. I certainly am not offering a fix, just a point of ponder. Like you, I have reinvented myself many times. I have changed my skin and redirected. I now realise some of these changes were simply because I found peace and that peace made me uncomfortable. As if I needed some sort of hardship or drama as that’s all I deserved. Sometimes we run when we think we have something we don’t necessarily deserve 🥹