Oh Suzanna, I felt this to my core, I also am estranged from my father, for similar reasons. And it hurts. I grieve a man who isn't dead. His patterns are indicative of narcissism.

Hey, on a different note, have you read Dr. Ramani Durvasula's book It's Not You - How to identity and heal from narcissistic people. It's perhaps the best book I've read on the topic.