This is incredibly powerful Ellen! I’m sorry to read of the difficulties leading to your decision to cut her off and then the cruel twist of fate that played out. I can understand your regret, it makes sense, but I also was glad to read that you recognise you said all you could for the time. You didn’t know better then. You’ve evolved and grown. I bet her passing was brought all sorts of emotions from relief and freedom to a grief of and longing for a mother you never had!